The Unknown

The Unkown awakens a wild storm in my soul. I wait at the water’s edge, water lapping over my feet. It feels cold and confronting as I watch the tide draw closer and closer. I know if I stay here, on the water’s edge, that I will sink into the sand. Thus, succumbing to the water’s force overcoming me. But if I choose to immerse myself in the waters of the Unknown I will step into something with confidence that everything will be ok.


Growing up

Waking up, I sit up in bed. The four walls surround me with a great sense of bewilderment. My mind finding it harder and harder to remember what things were like as a child. Memories that seemed so easily obtained had become a distant whisper. With a feeling of hesitation, I look into a mirror. My face has changed and so has the person standing of me. His face echoes pain, joy, and heartache. Others may say, I still look like I did two years ago. But the person I know now that owns that face would disagree. He knows that person inside is so far from who he was. Don’t let this face deceive you he says with great pride.

What I have been listening to ( Hard Times)

Hey everyone,

I’m back again with a post about music I have been loving lately.


Now today I will be talking about Paramore’s comeback effort “Hard Times”. This fresh and vibrant sound from the now three piece band which include Lead vocalist Hayley Williams, Taylor York and Zac Farro’s return after leaving the band in 2010.

The song’s sound echoes the New wave genre which was popularized in the late 70s till the mid-80s. The New wave is a genre of rock music which incorporates electronic, experimental music, mod, and disco. It also can be described as synthpop and pop rock.

I love this track as it feels honest and vulnerable. The song starts with Hayley stating “All I want is to wake up fine and tell me that I’m alright and I ain’t gonna die.” The statement echoes a truth that many people can relate to. This world can be a confusing and hard place to navigate.  For Hayley Williams, this song describes her battle with depression. Anyone who has struggled with Mental health problems wants that the reassurance that despite the fact things are hard that everything will be ok. Mental illness can be a lonely and isolating place to be and any reassurance by friends and family and society is important and needed.

This song is taken from Paramore’s new album that is set to be released on the 12th of May which is entitled “After Laughter”.

Hope your all having a great week!!! 🙂


Trepidation’s way (part 3)

The wet soil made a squelching sound underneath my Nike runners, which frightened me at first as I thought someone or something was following me. My nerves already feeling acutely aware that maybe this wasn’t such a good idea after all. Yet, I kept walking as I felt like I would find something important down Trepidation’s  way. What that was, I had no idea.Yet, without even looking back, I entered the looming undergrowth.

The overnight rain had left the trees dripping with rain drops that fell onto the back of my neck. This made me jump. Then left me speechless for a reason I did not comprehend. My body felt like it had been struck by lighting. Suddenly, a forceful wind blew furiously through the trees. The wind so powerful, I could barely keep my eyes open. As I stumbled forward, tripping over a particularly large rock. Everything went black.




Trepidation’s Way (Part 2)

Now, it’s important to note at the time I didn’t know what Trepidation meant. I had no phone reception to google such a word on that infamous day, etched in my memory forever. This sign stood before me. The eerie bold letters that made me fearful and excited all at the same, kept my gaze fixed.

After what felt like many minutes, I  finally broke from the trance that this unearthly sign had pulled me into. Now, if you were wondering why of all the days I went down this road and Inever noticd this sign. Well, the weather’s dismal mood seemed to make me notice that particular sign unlike the summer days in which I went down this road with a dazed sense of awareness.

I began to walk towards the path. My brain said no but my heart said yes. The path was made of soil which made it possible for its wet surface to create a trail of footprints to leave behind. This gave me the comfort that I could find my way back if something went gravely wrong.





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Trepidaton’s way (part 1)

One day I fell, from the highest of heights. Well, at least that’s what it felt like.

The day began like every other day. I woke up with a great sense of optimism while my vision began to clear from a night that left me feeling strong. I decided not to eat breakfast that morning as the morning’s cool air and scattered sunshine seemed strangely inviting. My wind chime rattled in the wind as I stepped out to feel the surprisingly icy wind blow against my face.

I began to walk at a quick pace so I can warm up and get my heart racing and blood pumping. I saw a path in the corner of my eye that I had never noticed before on my provincial surroundings that had become so familiar. I stopped suddenly in my tracks. At the beginning of the path stood a sign that read Trepidation’s Way.






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Music Moments (1)

Hey Everyone,

Hope you’re  having a great week. Today is my first music moments post where I talk about a song that means a great deal to me and has got me through some pretty rough times in my life. Ironically the song I am going to be talking about today is called Times by Tenth Avenue North.








When I listened to this song a lot, life was pretty sour and I was really struggling not only with my faith in God but also my emotions weighing very heavy on me. A lot was happening in my family at the time (as well as me personally) and I was struggling to cope with it all. I cried a lot then, I would find myself sobbing in the dark curled up in my bed late at night. With headphones in my ears just feeling so much weight. Music was an important tool for me to stay strong and continuously reminded of God’s faithfulness. I felt a lot of shame and hurt as my self-esteem was low. I can’t remember all the reasons why I felt the way I did.It was such a long time ago. All I know is the song gave me hope and reminded of God’s faithfulness even when God felt distant or life was really hard. Through those hard times, my faith in God grew as I learned to trust Him despite the fact He felt distant sometimes.

In fact, the whole album Over and Underneath album by Tenth Avenue North (which Times comes from) would have to be one of my favorite albums of all time. The lyrics to each song gave me such hope and peace and still does. I will leave a link below. 🙂


but the Lord can be trusted to Make You Strong and Protect You from harm. 

2 Thessalonians 3:3 







Hope everyone is having a great day and Godspeed 🙂


Music is a powerful force

Hey Everyone,

I’m back again and I’m here to make an announcement. Once a week I am going to feature a song that has impacted me personally as well reflect part of my journey. I’m also going to be chatting a little about what music means to me.

The power of music can be so underestimated in modern day culture. We often say a song is just a song… but is it really? Music has the power to shape culture in a powerful way; either in a negative or positive way. In more recent times we have seen an increase in politically motivated music like what was seen from Nina Simone in the 1960s. Some examples in recent times are Beyonce’s Formation and Freedom from her recent Grammy-nominated effort Lemonade. We have also seen a surprising entry to this movement is Chained to the Rythm by Katy Perry. Admittedly, when I first heard this song I thought it was your typical empty hot 100 Pop tune that has no real substance. However, I did some digging and the message is a very serious one despite being disguised with your typical generic Pop music sound. I won’t give it away and would like to hear you guys interpretation of the song. Pay close attention or you might miss the meaning.

Despite music being a tool in political movements, It often used to bring happiness to our otherwise mundane lives or peace to very troubled storms in life. For me, music is one of the most powerful forms of art on the planet as music unites people in a powerful way. Despite all of us having varied tastes in music, we can all agree music whether Rock, Pop, R&B or Classical and the list goes on, has the power to change how we think, feel and behave. Music can make us sit in silence with awe, wonder, and contemplation while other times it can make us want to dance.



To finish off today’s post, I will highlight two song which captures emotions and thoughts I have previously experienced and currently experience.





Hope you enjoyed this post and I hope you’re having a great day!!! 🙂

Godspeed. 🙂

A Monster Calls (Book reaction)

Hey Everyone,

Welcome to another blog post. Today I am going to talk about “A Monster Calls” by Patrick Ness. If you have never heard of “A Monster Calls” never fear, I have the lowdown right. So, this novel was published in 2011. I had never heard of this novel until I saw the trailer for the film adaption of the novel of the same name. When I first saw the trailer it gripped me emotionally and made me very excited to see it. I soon discovered it was a book and was curious about the original source material. I had the pleasure of reading this novel in the last two days and was instantly gripped by the emotionally raw portrait of a young boy’s journey of self-discovery and the pain of letting go of those you love.









Here is the official synopsis on goodreads:

The monster showed up after midnight. As they do.

But it isn’t the monster Conor’s been expecting. He’s been expecting the one from his         nightmare, the one he’s had nearly every night since his mother started her                             treatments, the one with the darkness and the wind and the screaming…

This monster is something different, though. Something ancient, something wild.                 And it wants the most dangerous thing of all from Conor.

It wants the truth.


One thing this book does well is create a great sense of realism about what it’s like coping with a mother who has been threatened with life-threating illness. Something I have experienced myself, I was easily able to relate to some of the feelings Conor experiences throughout the novel. While I have never been bullied like Connor or saying ‘the truth’ Conor ultimately has to speak, I can relate to the isolation of adults in particular, but also other kids not knowing how to show compassion about the circumstance you find yourself in.

This section, in particular, jumped out at me when I read it:

“The teachers in his new year were even worse because they only knew him in terms of his mother and not who he was before. And the other kids still treated him like he was the one who was ill”.

I won’t give anything else away from this novel as it’s a book worth experiencing but I highly recommend this novel if you enjoy coming-of-age stories.



I hope you enjoyed this week’s post and I can’t wait to see the movie when it hits cinemas in Australia. 😀

Until next time, enjoy your week and Godspeed.


Link to the song written for the “A Monster Calls” film which I love:


Soundtrack link:


Link to the movie trailer:

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